Last week I started to share how I came to really know that God the father loves me, that I am not an orphan but the beloved daughter of a loving heavenly Father. This week I want to help you understand even more.
Every time I talk about that truth, even as I’m writing this, I can’t help grinning at the sheer wondrousness of the statement. It encompasses a lot of what I learnt:
- I can call Him Daddy, because He wants to be in intimate relationship with me and ‘Our Father who art in Heaven’ can put serious distance between us. Sometimes it’s more appropo to address Him as king, and certainly it is true; but I learnt that if God is the King of kings, I am His princess! What a wonder!
- He loves me. He loves me. He loves me. He knew me before the beginning of Creation, He planned and thought out every aspect of me and my life. His thoughts concerning me are uncountable, and His hand was on me from the moment I was conceived. I don’t have to change to please Him, He made no mistakes in my design. With the death and resurrection of Christ, I am made new and perfect in His sight. He loves me a just as much as He does His Son, and sees us in the same light.
- So much. So so much. His grace is enough, I’m sure you’ve heard. His grace is enough and more for every single sin of every single person. His grace is simply the expression of His love and enormous desire to be close to us. Christ has done the work to get rid of what stands in the way of that, we just have to let the Spirit work in us and accept His love.
Day by day, I worked through specific issues the Spirit highlighted in me. I experienced extraordinary revelation of God’s thoughts concerning me. Sometimes I would pray the dangerous prayer at the end of a talk, and the Spirit would say ‘Let’s bookmark this one. Listen to this bit again.’ I’d almost be disappointed; keen to remove as much gunk as possible, but really it was a great kindness. Every thorn pulled hurt and ached somewhere in my soul, and Daddy was giving me the chance to rest and meditate on some other truths rather than pull another one out and bleed some more. And, He pointed out; we have 24 years of wounds and issues to get through. Five days isn’t really enough time to manage all that, and anyway, He wants to take His time, and really make sure the healing He’s giving me can grow and sink in.
Things are different for me now. I look at old habits and while they’re far from broken they just don’t seem so important. Sometime between waking and breakfast I find myself thinking ‘Morning Abba. Let’s be together today’. Songs I’ve sung hundreds of times and thought I understood I’m rethinking and praying into in new ways. He’s on my mind more and more. It’s very much like falling in love. It’s hard not to love someone when they loved you so much before you even knew them.
One of the best gifts this has woken in me is letting go a bit more of ‘should’. I should read the bible more often, I should make time for prayer and meditation, I should journal more, I should soak, etc etc. Instead I do these things through love, and through the Spirit in me, and because I’d honestly rather read and meditate on that Psalm than watch the latest movie. And if I’d rather watch the movie? That’s ok too. What I’ve found is that God’s not holding any of it against me, so why should I? He doesn’t want me to tick boxes, He wants me to love Him and do things out of love. Thank God! It’s much easier that way!
There’s more. So much more. But this is already enormously long, so perhaps another day. I’ll leave you with this, of which I am completely confident:
No matter how well you think God loves you, He loves you more. No matter how you have encountered His grace, you can encounter it more. He loves you far better than any parent has ever loved their child. Open your heart just a crack more, and He’ll show you.
Find out more about the school here: http://www.encounteringthefatherslove.org/
My blog here: http://livinginfatherslove.tumblr.com/
A book that you may like to read that covers similar ground to the course is “Spiritual Slavery to Spiritual Sonship” by Jack Frost. This comes highly recommended!
by Bethany Wong, part of Hope Church Luton