When God Doesn’t Feel Like A Rock


I mentioned previously that God is a rock, in this blog I want to acknowledge that he doesn’t always feel like one!

The important word being “feel”, feelings can be difficult to control and often take over. Outward crisis result in inward crisis and we feel overwhelmed. God may be a rock, but he doesn’t feel like one.

The scriptures are not silent on this and can help for us when we feel overwhelmed. In Psalm 42 and 43 the Psalmist talks about his experience of being overwhelmed. The Psalms are the hymn book of Israel; this song is made up of 3 verses with a chorus after each verse!

Look at the verses first, which describes feelings of being overwhelmed.

The Psalmist uses a picture of waves overwhelming us. He declares God is our rock, but he seems to have forgotten us. My bones cry out Where is your God?” why have you forgotten me?

He uses imagery of being parched. He describes extreme feelings of dryness. The cry is the same – where is your God?

The third verse, Psalm 43, describes feelings of being totally misjudged.

Such feelings are best expressed, better than kept in. Such feelings do not stop us praying!

However, the point is – we do experience such feelings. God is a rock, God is our stronghold but we feel rejected, we still feel overwhelmed.

The second part of each of the verses reflect on these feelings.

He feels overwhelmed but remembers corporate worship in the past 42v4, he brings to mind other feelings, of shouts of joy and praise, feelings of joy and praise in corporate worship.

He brings to mind personal experience of God’s grace 42v8.

He looks forward to worshiping in the future 43v3-4

So the verses of the song –

Describe feeling dry, overwhelmed and attacked.

They then reflect on the memory of previous experiences of joy and praise in worship, of the personal grace of God and then looking forward with assurance of getting to the place of praise again.

Most good songs have a chorus, a refrain. So does this song.

11 Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Saviour and my God.

He speaks to himself, challenges himself to move beyond feelings. Overwhelmed. Dry. Ridiculed. By remembering truth, he seeks to take control.

“Have you realized that most of your unhappiness in life is due to the fact that you are listening to yourself instead of talking to yourself? Take those thoughts that come to you the moment you wake up in the morning. You have not originated them but they are talking to you, they bring back the problems of yesterday, etc. Somebody is talking. Who is talking to you? Your self is talking to you. Now this man’s treatment [in Psalm 42] was this: instead of allowing this self to talk to him, he starts talking to himself. “Why art thou cast down, O my soul?” he asks. His soul had been depressing him, crushing him. So he stands up and says, “Self, listen for moment, I will speak to you.” Martyn Lloyd-Jones

Feelings are so uncontrollable, so unreliable, yet so real.

The important thing is that truth is not dependant on our feelings. Moses, David, myself, and many others, can look back beyond their feelings and declare God is our rock. There will be times when you may not feel like that, the important thing is what you then do. Best is to do what the psalmist did.

  1. Acknowledge those feelings. Acknowledge them to yourself, to God, to others.
  2. Reflect on past experiences of blessing and look forward to future experiences of blessing.
  3. Speak to yourself, remind yourself what God has done for you, why you can be certain he is a rock even if you don’t feel it.


Written by Tony Thompson

– based on his sermon from 21st February 2016 – Click here to listen to it


Tony Thompson is the leader of Hope Church Luton.  He works full time for the church and is married to Anne and they have 2 sons.


Love Can Be Risky

The next day he took out two denarii and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’ 

Luke 10 v 35


Recently, I heard of a man who saw a younger person stranded on a motorway after a breakdown. He saw the danger and ran in to the motorway to catch the person and bring them to the hard shoulder and to safety. Unfortunately, a vehicle didn’t see him and struck him. He died. The person the man rescued survived without injury. Love is instinctive and risky.

Familiar parables have a high profile in church and sometimes in the world. The phrase “prodigal son” would be an example used widely in the media.

We are familiar with the general theme of the Good Samaritan. The least likely, least “religious” person comes to the aid of the man described as “half dead” on the road whilst the religious people walk on by as they have a prayer meeting to attend. They are too busy to get their hands dirty.

I was pondering this parable recently and noticed something afresh.

The Samaritan not only provided the two denarii but also put himself at financial risk. He says that he will “pick up the bill for any extra expense”.

Now let’s ponder. The Samaritan knows nothing of the character of the injured man. Supposing after he is left to rest he decides on a week at the inn. The inn becomes “the Holiday Inn”.

Supposing he is feeling better and raids the mini-bar in his room for spirits. He goes for rump steak on the menu. He then asks for a set of new clothes. He reassures the innkeeper that his guarantor will pay the final bill in full. The text doesn’t tell us that he took advantage but that isnt the focus. The focus is the lavish love of the Samaritan.

The Good Samaritan will see the bill. He gets the call and is committed to paying up. He puts himself at a degree of risk for a stranger.

A few years ago I was working in the US. A company director heard that a fellow director was very drunk and was in a hotel bedroom full of empty wine bottles. Knowing he was depressed, he responded to the call from the hotel staff (who found his business card) and organised an emergency trip to the Hospital where he was re-hydrated. His life was saved. When the man was sober, rather than being full of gratitude he noted a chance to sue the Director who saved him ! Using a privacy disclosure law in the US he threatened to take action. Bizzarely, it is cheaper to settle the money out of court rather than defend. I was horrified. One man takes responsibility, risks loving and is threatened with being sued for saving a life !

But real love is risky.

In the case of the Director, the motorway rescue and the Samaritan decisions had to be made instantly. The “love values” stored in the heart over the years resulted in instant action.

Reasoned advanced planning was not possible.

So too with Jesus Christ. He chose to remain on the cross when he could have called it off. Sacrificing himself to defeat sin and make a way possible for redemption. His instant response was to stay there seeing the multitude of human souls trapped on a spiritual  motorway.

Risky love is not usually seen by others but only by God. I guess that’s authenticity.

Let’s keep loving though it may be risky.



Jon Gledhill is a member of Hope Church Luton
Jon Gledhill is a member of Hope Church Luton



God Is Our Rock

carmel_splash_183780Most people believe in God, the issue is what is the God you believe in like. For example, Britain First recently visited Luton claiming to speak on behalf of God. They said of church leaders in Luton, “these so-called “Christians” are gormless, trendy, politically correct, tree-hugging, sandal wearing hippies who only care about “multiculturalism”, appeasing Islam and publicising themselves.”

Their actions did not in any way represent the God that I believe in!

We need ways to describe and understand God. The Bible is full of different names and metaphors, pictures for God. Some come from God himself, others by men describing the God they have experienced. Rock is the most common term used to describe people’s experience of God.

Moses and David, in the midst of their difficulties found God to be a rock. Moses at end of his life, looking back on his life. David when he had become King, following 20 years of civil war being hunted by Saul.

He is the Rock, his works are perfect, and all his ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is he. Deuteronomy 32v4

The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. Psalm 18v2

The Lord lives! Praise be to my Rock! Exalted be God my Savior! Psalm 18 v46

The realisation of God being a rock came out of their experiences of turmoil, as the waves of life crashed around them, God was their rock.


God as our rock is always relevant – there is always turmoil, waves in life. Life is challenging. As seen by the Britain First conflict – Luton is at the heart of many challenges.

Turmoil comes personally and globally. Global turmoil produces personal turmoil.

Global events become real when they come close, when we meet refugees, when terrorist attacks impact those we know and love. They bring home the fragility of life, its uncertainty. When the financial crisis causes us to lose our jobs, for our savings to be halved, we experience turmoil.

Personal turmoil. You know it can happen, but that doesn’t prepare you for it. Feelings rise up that you can’t do anything about.

It is then that we need to know God as our rock.

How is God a rock to us?

In Mark chapter 4 we have a story of Jesus stilling the storm, following which he says, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

God is our rock by stilling storms in our lives.

However, this is not the full extent of him being our rock. He is also our rock by being with us in the midst of our storms, not as wishful thinking, not as an imaginary friend we rely on when things get tough. But as a real support and comfort.

God is with us in our storms as the risen Lord Jesus. All global forces did their worse, the Roman Empire, religious authorities combined to put him to death; he faced the worse personal forces can do, including his friends deserting him. He overcame, defeated them all. Even the last enemy, death, being defeated. Jesus is with us, as he was with the disciples in the boat.

I didn’t make God up – he revealed himself to me and to all his creation. He revealed himself to Moses and David!

Jesus can say “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

We can have faith in God, our rock.

Such an important truth in the midst of storms and turmoil.


Written by Tony Thompson

– based on his sermon from 7th February 2016 – Click here to listen to it


Tony Thompson is the leader of Hope Church Luton.  He works full time for the church and is married to Anne and they have 2 sons.

Balance as a Church

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I have blogged previously about the importance of balance in our relationships as a Christian. Balance in our relationship with God; with fellow believers – building community; and with the hurting world around us. This follows the model of Jesus.

I now want to explore what this mean for us as a church.

  1. Easier said than done!

It is so much easier to focus on 2 rather than 3. How do we even know whether we are balanced?

Two people can look at the same church and conclude it is unbalanced, but disagree about what the imbalance is!

We need to hear from God and each other! Individuals can have different perspectives, depending on their personality, history and maybe even prejudice.

I am increasingly convinced of the importance of seeking to be balanced focused on God; building authentic, loving, caring community, together being Christ on earth; focusing on the world around us, seeking God’s kingdom to come on earth as it is in heaven.

But how! Here are some thoughts on how we can seek to check our balance in an objective way.

  1. Prayer life of the church.

If you look at Paul’s prayers, as recorded in his letters, you find a significant emphasis on thanking God – 40% of his prayers. He thanks God for the churches, what is happening outside the church and even for God himself.

There are other prayers just praising God, others praying for the church and still others for God’s impact of the world.

Overall what hits me is that Paul’s prayers are “balanced” including

  • adoration and worship;
  • prayer for ourselves;
  • prayer for others.

A way to check on the balance of any church is to look at their prayer life. How balanced is it?

  1. Prophecy.

We believe that God speaks today. The gifts of the Spirit, including prophecy, did not cease with the coming of the NT but continue today.

Over time you would expect to have prophecies that give us insights into the character of God, insights into what God is doing within Hope Church and within individuals within Hope Church, and what God is doing outside the church – in Luton, nation, nations.

I come to this conclusion through reading the writings of the prophets included in my Bible, they had these 3 focuses.

Paul encourages us to eagerly desire the spiritual gifts, especially the gift of prophecy. We need to do so, we also need to eagerly desire the rounded, full gift of prophecy. We need to contemplate God, in all his richness and fullness. What characteristic does he want emphasised today?

The Bible is full of prophecies of what God is doing in the nations, to encourage prayer but also because he is God of the whole earth, not just Israel, not just the church. People believed in regional gods. We can get into same trap, thinking God is only interested in our church! Prophecy should challenge this.

Additionally, we obviously need to hear what God is saying to the church and individuals within it.

Prophecy is therefore another way of checking for balance.

  1. Other areas?

We need to preach about God – who he is; what he has done. Preach about his church, his glorious bride, what He wants us to be individually and corporately. Preach about the world – what he is doing, what he wants us to do.

We should expect small groups to have a balance, staffing and finances generally to have a balance.

  1. Some final thoughts on a focus on the hurting world around us!

It should be wider than just evangelism. If our focus is only on evangelism it can actually be a subtle way of just focusing on ourselves, we just want to grow our church! It doesn’t counter act the tendency to think that it is all about us.

Authentic focus on the hurting world around us is being interested in things outside our own church. Seeking to bring change to our town, our nation, the nations.

We are trying to do this as a church. Working with other churches around the world, praying for world events, seeking the good of our nation and town as well as being involved in helping people discover the truth about Jesus.

However, I finish where I started. It is one thing to have a desire to be balanced, it is another to achieve it. That is the journey we are on.

Tony Thompson

– based on his sermon from 31st January 2016


Tony Thompson is the leader of Hope Church Luton.  He works full time for the church and is married to Anne and they have 2 sons.